Getting it Done...Kinda

I can't believe its almost October. I cant wait for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I am looking forward to seeing my family and friends. 

Anyway, as previously stated, I was debating if I wanted to get my teaching licence. I have now come to the conclussion that I will not be pursuing that at this time. I have been looking and listening to answers and I have met a few teachers that have told me (without me asking them about teaching)to reconsider   being a teacher because of the politics within the school districts and other stuff teachers have to deal with. I feel at peace with my decision and so its something I can cross of my list. It feels good.

One thing I can't wait to cross off my list is graduate school. I am so close to being done, but I am soooooo burned out, that I have a hard time just editing and writing 5 pages of my thesis. I worked on it a little this weekend and It did feel good to get some of it done, but grad school is just a heavy cloud that keeps following me day after day. I know to get rid of the cloud is do the work, but the motivataion is not there. I know that once I am finished with my thesis and presentation I will probably break down and cry because I will be so thankful it is done. Grad school was a lot of work and I am proud that I went and did well in school. I learned a lot too, but I will never go back to school for another degree. :) 

I am looking forward to what my degree will lead me. I am hoping that one day I can  work for myself or work for myself part time. I have a lot to offer and I just can't wait to get to a place where I can really shine and be appreciated off my work. 

A Week in Review: Police Reports, Emergency Rooms, and Pain Medication.

September has been an interesting month so far. Lots of trying moments that leave me question what am I supposed to learn through all of these moments. 

I think Monday was the only best day of the week and usually I hate Mondays. Tuesday morning we woke up to our garage open and our cars had been gone through. Luckily they only took Johns watch that I gave him for his birthday and my work bag. The joke is on them because the only thing in my work bag was a bunch of papers, lesson plans and markers. Wednesday I battled morning traffic and it almost took me 2 hours to go 30 miles. So frustrating. Then later that night at taekwondo, I was sparring against John and I fell and landed on my shoulder and he landed on top of me. I was proud that I kept me cool and didn't start crying (even though I wanted to). I just waited until we got in the parking lot and that is when I lost it, haha. 

John took me to the emergency room because we thought my collar bone was broken. We were at the emergency room for only an hour! I think that is a record and the doctor and hospital staff were really nice, again, a first for me. Luckily I didn't break anything and I just have a bad sprain. Thursday I woke up feeling really, really sore. I couldn't move at all. I also felt sick to my stomach every time I sat up or tried to walk. The only solution was to lay down. I had to stay home from work, however, I had my job interview later that day!!!! I managed to somehow get ready for it, but I did terrible at the interview. I felt like I was going to throw up through the whole interview and I couldnt answer the questions effectivly. Ugh!

After the interview I had to go to the store to get my perscription filled. By this time I was also starving and thought getting a snack would maybe help my stomach. So while I waited for my perscription to be filled, I sat down at Starbucks and drank an iced tea and a little snack. During the whole time I was there, I prayed that I wouldn't throw up at the store and that I could have enough strength to get my medicine and make it home. Thankfully I did end up getting the strength and made it home in time to throw up in the proper place. :) 

Friday I felt a little better and went to work, although I think my co-workers thought I was loony and even asked if I was feeling ok. I said no and later I went home because I was so uncomfortable and not feeling well. I was also bummed because I was supposed to belt test for taekwondo last night, but kind of hard to do that when your sick and crippled. :)  

Last night I slept horrible. I kept waking up feeling sick to my stomach, dizzy and sweating like a fever had broke. Plus my pain medicine makes me have crazy dreams. I am still feeling blah, but I am happy that I am able to move my arm and shoulder a bit more and I am not in tears anymore because of the pain. 

I wonder what next week has to offer. I hope its not as painful. :) 

*I appologize if this doesn't seem to make sense, Im still on my pain medicine. :)

Fall

Fall is in the air! I really miss seeing leaves turn colors. In Texas the grass gets brown and that's pretty much it. I love fall. Pumpkin spice lattes, pumpkin candles and apple cider...my favorite.

To Teach or Not to Teach

Is it Friday yet?!? Ugh. I am exhausted and it is only Monday. I still haven't recuperated from last week. Last week was my first week teaching and I can tell I am out of "shape." I haven't taught since June, so I guess sitting in my cubical the last two months really screwed me up. My feet have been killing me since last Monday. My feet have been swollen and feel like they are bruised. What makes it worse is that on Saturday I went to try on some beautiful shoes at Target and I couldn't get the shoe to fit on the right foot! Sad. 

Here in a couple of weeks I should be back in "shape." I just can't wait until that day comes where I don't come home exhausted and pass out on the couch. It makes doing night time chores so hard when you can't move. 

Something I have been debating  for the last year is whether to get my teaching license. I feel so natural teaching, but the thought of going back to school makes me sick. I am still procrastinating my masters degree when all I really have to do is write 5ish or so more pages to my thesis and that is it. I am super burned out on school and that is why I cant figure out if I want to get my teaching license. But the thought of having summers and holidays off sounds nice. :) The only thing I can do is pray about it at this point. So we will see what happens. :)

Have you ever been confused as to what you want to do for your career? I have so many ideas and really wanting to get started with my career, but I feel like there are barriers that keep me from doing what  really love. I guess I have to be patient because I know that God wouldn't have allowed me to go through all of this schooling for nothing. :)

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